Well, Dragarta has been poking me around because of this old journal for quite some time now,so I figured it`s really time for some update.
What`s new:
* New job, quite a decent one I guess, not exactly what I had in mind but of course, but I cannot be picky at this time, without any skills and/or experience one might add. Not exactly my kind of thing either, but 'you have to do what you have to do', that is it. No passion in it really, guess this is how 'an ordinary' worker feels like...
* Will to change things, question is, how are they going to turn out at the end, not sure if I want to know at all.
* More money obviously, although there is no joy in them, only more problems.
* My Canon 300D broke, no second mirror and AF working - I managed to fix that, bud only to find my set piece 18-55mm to be also broken and only working around 50mm+ fl, life is sometimes a b...
What`s hot:
* Dragarta, she is on fire you know, so probably (definitely) HOT - and as always, the one and only light in the dark
What`s not:
* School - still not finished, oh my god this is such a f*cking nightmare. The day I will finish this stuff will be one of the most amazing days in my life - and GOD I hope it will be soon. Over the years, it has come from awkward to downright hell. It is so depressing, so unfulfilling, so useless... years of my life wasted with absolute and pure *NOTHING*, this one is really crushing my life atm *sigh*...
* Personal trouble - just that sometimes even getting a tea feels like climbing a mountain, I really have no idea why life must be like this, I must find a new reality escape technique. Seeing my colleagues at work, with only 20 more years to pay their mortage, every-day-is-the-same nothing-changes kind of look in their eyes, one really must find something to LIVE for.
* No time AND mood to create - creating or immersing yourself in other world was always something that kept me going. Now, there is no time or mood for that, I really don`t know how I will function in a long period of time without this, one feels like an empty shell sometimes.